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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

When is the last time we lie on bed n have heart to heart talk...do u remember? When is the last time we head to sleep together, i dun remember. When is the last time ur soul hugs me, we both cant cfm.

Tremendously disppointed is how i feel now. Thinking tt u r waiting for me so as to hug me...i'm silly. U have gotten wat u want, but wat i hope for was nvr here. Giving chance one after another...disappointment is wat i gotten. I was left lying alone once again.

U nvr learn how lousy I feel n how upset I can get. Tears r rolling down, but u r too sound asleep to know it.`Closing my eyes to stop the tears, but they r sqeezing out from tt lil corner of my eyes.

what we could have been, Wednesday, February 18, 2009.
Saturday, February 14, 2009

Don know where to start... feeling down. Why am I keeping my mouth shut...cos my heart is just aching too much.

Am I really willing to SHUT UP, I dun know... Maybe cos u told me to, maybe I'm tired, maybe its dead.

I no longer see myself in ur eyes, no longer see our future. Closed my eyes, trying to feel ur touch n love, all I get are tears rolling dwn from my closed eyes. I cant see, I can't imagine, they are fading away.

No security, no assurence is how i feel. Many a times, I wan to walk away, dun wish to listen, dun wish to talk, dun wish see the truth. But u shown it all to me.

Giving benefit of doubts doesn't work, the benefits are running out. Endurance is running low. I dun know when will I decide to give up or maybe u have already give it up.

Not knowing wat is lying in front of me, where I am heading n wat will I get. This bet is too risky, the stake is just too big for me to feel safe. I'm shivering behind the mask.

The songs we share, the commons we have, the love we builded, the fun n memories we had. They have been forgotten, no longer there. I'm accepting the facts.

The less expectation and hope u have, the least disappointed u get. I'm prepared for whatever will happen next.

what we could have been, Saturday, February 14, 2009.
Monday, February 02, 2009

*想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂 
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了 
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折 
假裝瞭解是怕 真相太赤裸裸 狼狽比失去難受

#我懷念的是無話不說 
我懷念的是一起做夢 
我懷念的是爭吵以後 還是想要愛你的衝動 
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌 
記得那片星空 最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
(誰記得) 誰忘了

我懷念的是無言感動 我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動 求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後 我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧 最美的煙火 最長的相擁

誰愛的太自由 誰過頭太遠了 
誰要走我的心 誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走 誰忘了跟著我 
誰讓愛變沉重 誰忘了要給你溫柔

(我懷念的) 我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手 我讓座 假灑脫 誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了 所以我 沒有哭 沒有說

what we could have been, Monday, February 02, 2009.


what we could have been, Monday, February 02, 2009.

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