Saturday, February 14, 2009
Don know where to start... feeling down. Why am I keeping my mouth shut...cos my heart is just aching too much.
Am I really willing to SHUT UP, I dun know... Maybe cos u told me to, maybe I'm tired, maybe its dead.
I no longer see myself in ur eyes, no longer see our future. Closed my eyes, trying to feel ur touch n love, all I get are tears rolling dwn from my closed eyes. I cant see, I can't imagine, they are fading away.
No security, no assurence is how i feel. Many a times, I wan to walk away, dun wish to listen, dun wish to talk, dun wish see the truth. But u shown it all to me.
Giving benefit of doubts doesn't work, the benefits are running out. Endurance is running low. I dun know when will I decide to give up or maybe u have already give it up.
Not knowing wat is lying in front of me, where I am heading n wat will I get. This bet is too risky, the stake is just too big for me to feel safe. I'm shivering behind the mask.
The songs we share, the commons we have, the love we builded, the fun n memories we had. They have been forgotten, no longer there. I'm accepting the facts.
The less expectation and hope u have, the least disappointed u get. I'm prepared for whatever will happen next.
Am I really willing to SHUT UP, I dun know... Maybe cos u told me to, maybe I'm tired, maybe its dead.
I no longer see myself in ur eyes, no longer see our future. Closed my eyes, trying to feel ur touch n love, all I get are tears rolling dwn from my closed eyes. I cant see, I can't imagine, they are fading away.
No security, no assurence is how i feel. Many a times, I wan to walk away, dun wish to listen, dun wish to talk, dun wish see the truth. But u shown it all to me.
Giving benefit of doubts doesn't work, the benefits are running out. Endurance is running low. I dun know when will I decide to give up or maybe u have already give it up.
Not knowing wat is lying in front of me, where I am heading n wat will I get. This bet is too risky, the stake is just too big for me to feel safe. I'm shivering behind the mask.
The songs we share, the commons we have, the love we builded, the fun n memories we had. They have been forgotten, no longer there. I'm accepting the facts.
The less expectation and hope u have, the least disappointed u get. I'm prepared for whatever will happen next.
what we could have been, Saturday, February 14, 2009.
